Anxiety

Yes, I am one of the people that face depression and anxiety! I went thru something traumatic and it has put me here. My anxiety is so bad that I worry about everything before I even need to. Here is what anxiety feels like to me: feeling like you are alone, worrying about everything, being afraid to put trust in people, and the worst of all feeling like you can’t breathe because it feels like someone is sitting on your chest! I recently got back into the dating pool, & that gives me anxiety because I feel like I am screwing up when he tells me I’m not!! He makes me really happy and he comforts me and everything else. I really like this guy. He is starting to help me get my self-confidence back which is what I needed. But that’s a different story for a different time. Maybe one day I can share on Facebook who this incredible guy is. Now, back to anxiety! Yes, anxiety can be a real pain. I sometimes can’t sleep because the anxiety has me worried! Sometimes I can’t eat! I hope I will get better soon; I really do. But until that day comes I will probably keep on worrying, and crying when no one else knows! I hope you never feel the way I feel. In my piece of advice if you have depression or anxiety talk to someone about it. It may feel like you are alone, but there are people that actually care about you!!

Starting Over

As I am sitting here in my childhood room I have a lot of thoughts! So much as happened to me where I feel like God is challenging me! I became a widow at 30 years old, which I thought we would grow old together! Then, in December I had to put one of my dogs down, which really affected me! Thumper was my husbands dog so I felt like putting her down was the last thing I had connected me to him. I know he will always be in my heart, but I break sometimes! I go to bed alone, I wake up alone, & I can't call him when something exciting happens!! I know I have my family, but I definitely not ready to end this chapter in my life. I was diagnosed with Depression in January, & I have been really hard on myself. In June I am going back home to start packing it up, which I will probably really be down a little bit! Paul bought that house in the town where we thought we would grow old together, & I would never have a mortgage. This was our dream house so having to say goodbye is going to be hard. I am not ready to say goodbye, but I know that this is what I need to do. I am going to live with my parents in the house I grew up in until I find a house. I really feel like I am starting over. I don't like what has happened with my life, but I have to understand that this is my new reality! I can only hope it will get better!!


xoxo,

Karebear

New Year: New Adventure

Well it looks like a new adventure is happening this year! I am excited, but then I am nervous at the same time! Moving really soon!! Like within the next 3 weeks moving! I am hoping this move really expands my horizons! I gotta start packing tomorrow!! Yikes!!

It's About Time.....

Well, it's about time I am back to writing on my blog. You can't really count the last two blog posts because those were for Influenster. I figured I better get back to writing on my blog because I honestly miss the writing. I love to write, but I have actually not written anything in quite a while. When I have the time I will make a better post with me catching up. I just wanted to say it is about time I come back to the blog world. I will try to write a blog once a week at least; maybe more... just not sure yet so stay tuned in!! I am not sad in my pic... just to let you know!! :)

NYC Trio Eyeshadow

I just want to say I love the NYC Trio eyeshadow! I received this product complimentary from Influenster!! The way I get my look is I basically just put it on my eyes. When I put it on my eyes, it is usually light & since I like my eyeshadow dark; I usually put on 2 layers of the eyeshadow. I will be honest I don't know how to do crease parts or highlighting part (still trying to learn by watching videos) so I just put eyeshadow all over my eyelids! It really works however I do want to sit down with all my makeup since I have a lot & just try to do different looks by watching videos! I am not real familiar with different ways to do with makeup so I don't feel like comfortable with recommendations!! The tip I would suggest is to use eyeshadow that brings out the color of your eyes!! Even though I usually wear eyeshadow that shows how I am feeling. What I mean by that is I choose the eyeshadow of how I am feeling. I can say that I love the color of the eyeshadow Trio!! @Influenster @NYC #jollyvollybox

Influenster: Jolly Volly Box

I would like to say that I got my 2nd influenster box! It is called the Jolly Volly Box! Let's just say from the skinny cow chocolates to the mini duct tapes to the in between I love everything that came in this box!! You get these products complimentary from Influenster! There are tasks you need to complete when you get your box, but it is all fun!! I have enjoyed the Jolly Volly Box from the first moment! With this being my 2nd Influenster Box I have qualified for I have loved everything that comes with it!

NKOTB

This year has been really awesome!! I went on a New Kids on the Block cruise!! Jon was so sweet and Donnie gives the best hugs!!! All of the guys are really great!! On the cruise when they switched into their toga wardrobe Jon gave me his toga crown!! I finally put the toga crown into a shadow box picture frame! It looks so cool!! Now i know it won't break apart or get ruined!!

I went to the concert on 6/8/13 and I had my first meet & greet!! It was awesome. First walked in Donnie & he gave me the longest hug! Then walked in Jon and I told him what I wanted to tell him!! I got a hug from each of the guys! It was incredible!! Then today a few people told me that they saw a commercial with me for enews!! So this Friday I will be in a small clip on enews at 7/6 c 

So I am really excited!! There will be other news that I will talk about later!! I am going to another NKOTB concert 2 hrs away and I believe I will get a meet & greet with 98 degrees since the last one was with nkotb & I was always a fan of 98 degrees so that will be a dream of mine coming true!! I have never lived my life more than this year!! So try to catch a glimpse of me on enews this friday!!